ShadesOfGrey85

"Bodies dripping Acid. Mental Currency. I drink like a chimney, I smoke like a forest of fists made of iron gripping the necks of children, ashing their futures into a graveyard of doctors and lawyers and astronauts. Sirens, shrieking, darkness. Visions so bright they blind you. Voices so loud all you can hear is silence. Silence.. and your own thoughts, your own voice and- screaming... Screaming? Why am I screaming? You open your eyes and everything is white. White suits, white ties, white lights. What happened? Your memories are faded and everything is grey... What happened?"

My mind is shaking, whizzing, whirring, swirling about. A tornado of feeling, drowning in a sea of fragmented thought. Drowning, drowning.. drowning? Your name fills my lungs with oxygen, your eyes are the compressions on my chest. I dont live without you. Blue, Orange, Purple, Yellow, lights flashing in my periferals. I want to dance in your rain. Fuck.

Before I met you I was alone. Not in the literal sense, but more that it was just me. It was me against the world, lost and scared. I didnt know who I was or where I belonged. Before I met you, food was bland. I couldn't eat... Meals consisted of pills that tasted like blades to the wrist and so hard to swallow. Nights were cold and sleepless. I didnt mind though. Cold meant pain, and at the time, pain was all I could feel. All I understood. Sleep meant waking up, and to be awake meant to be alive- and oh dear god was living hell. Before I met you, I was a mess... All that has changed now. Sleepless nights are warmed, comforted by thoughts of